Goals for Today:

1. Learn not to take it personally when people say crappy things about Christians and/or Christianity. They aren’t talking about me personally, and I used to say the same things. Still, it’s hard. I find myself wanting to jump up and down and say “But there are lots of Christians that aren’t like that!!! You just don’t ever NOTICE those ones.”
2. Get Mother’s Day cards for Mom and Step-Mom. Sign them. MAIL THEM. (key importance)
3. Contact Pastoral Reference for Seminary and find out reason for non-responsiveness to email. Guessing email is not working or there is a problem between the Keyboard and the Chair (i.e. user not actually CHECKING email).
4. Cheer Up.  I am somewhat unreasonably down in the dumps. Don’t THINK it’s hormonal. Situational / circumstantial data looks fairly normal.
5. Get prepared for little recognition on Mother’s Day. Expect the worst, hope for the best as they say. Step-moms tend to get the short end of the stick on this one. My oldest tells me she’s got me covered though, and my husband already has a card on my desk with a “Do not open until Sunday” note on it, so I know I’ll be getting some love. 😀
6. Consider the following: “…for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.” This is so far beyond me.
7. Remember to ask people who seem irritated with me “what should i have done differently in your view? what would you have preferred to see me do?”  Just getting mad back doesn’t work (or make sense), and saying “what’s wrong” usually get’s a “nothing. nothing’s wrong” response which doesn’t help either. How can I know what behaviors are upsetting and decide what I’m willing to change if “nothing’s wrong”?
8. WAKE UP! It’s not even 9 a.m. and I’m having trouble keeping my eyes open while I type. This doesn’t bode well for the day.