today was a stressful day.
yesterday was an unhappy day.
when people i love are unhappy, i am unhappy.
when i am happy and people i love are unhappy it is stressful.
when i am unhappy and people i love are unhappy it is extra stressful.
misery loves company, but i am not in misery and i’d like to be happy.
i’d like the people i love to be happy when i am happy.
the clock ticks, ticks, ticks,
time moves too slow and too fast,
the moment is gone.
thoughts on the sin nature of gluttony: i know that to eat more than i need is to treat my body poorly, i know that to feed my body with too many processed foods and sugars is not proper caretaking, i know that too eat way too much of bad foods is gluttony, i know that gluttony is a sin, i know that I have a conscious desire to avoid sin, and a conscious desire to avoid eating too much, yet…. presented with a box of donuts or a carton of ice cream, I do not care. I want to eat them, and I want to eat as much as I can get away with eating. I do not binge, I do not purge, I do not have an eating disorder. I just want to eat yummy foods. But if I am the steward of my body, and I am unable to properly care for it, how can I be trusted to steward anything else? What do I lose by missing the mark? What do I gain besides extra weight? Must get something out of it or I wouldn’t do it.
I would like to take a nap and I would like a drink. Not necessarily in that order. My husband would like it if I would come home instead of blogging I’m sure.
On my way.